practical room
I
I am imagining a practical room. Everything about this room exudes practicality. It is what you expect,
Not filled with many unpractical things like the rooms of my past.
II
I have organized this room according to a universal stacking mechanism. All things are mostly stacked.
The bed is stacked upon the floors, rectangularly, I am stacked upon the bed, squarely,
Triangulating precarious risk opportunities, with this universal stacking.
III
I am organizing transatlantic communiques into new folders
I am putting the different parts of my room into new folders
When I wake up I can reassemble them I can reassemble them
I don’t just wanna sit around
I don’t just wanna sit around in my own filth
I wanna be clean I wanna be clean yes
I wanna be hairless smooth moving soundless smoothly
Smoothly moving movie smoothly smoothing
I see on my phone that people are stealing dogs
I see on my phone that people are stealing dogs
I feel compulsion, I feel compulsion
Repulsion, propulsion, propellant missile
Newest technology, greater and more moral
More morsels for you because of it
Yes more morsels open wide yes
Open wide I am dropping a missile into it
Into your mouth into your line your line
Your line of defense I am sanding this missile
It will be perfect and unblemished
I am sanding the finish from this fine missile
I am sanding the strange things that were written on it by strange hands
I am sanding off the gelatins of history, sanding them sanding them
I am sanding them moving my hand in a sanding gesture
A sanding gesture masturbatory gesture compulsive gesture working gesture
Vile and obscene gesture unknown gesture unknown symbol let-loose in the backyard
Reprimand me tomorrow it will hurt more
I will have been hurt by the dream I had last night
Hurt by my violent dream life hurt by my ears ringing
I am hurt by the fact
I am hurt by the fact that I can breathe that I can breathe
Softly breathlessly copulating copulating
Moonlight godlessness blaspheme
I am hurt by this and more
Hurt by things which never hurt anyone before
Hurt by spiral trials by trials spiraling spiral trialling
Hurt by insides and outside and groups most of all
And directions and classifications and names and faces
And remembering and remembering
And the primal desire to reach out and touch
And the primal desire to reach out and hold on to and touch again this time gently
The desire to kill one’s self, which I cannot say I possess, I do not know
I am drifting, I am lost, something along these lines
Something along these lines, drifting lost
These lines cadaverous
Running lightly and energetically
Reanimated every moment yes every moment
I am friends with the technician
I am friends with him, the electrocuted technician
He did things well he died well
He surged up with everything else and he died well
Black lines, hanging lines, hanging from rotting wood
Sharp to the child running his fingers across it, splinter-fest
Splintering all across the county the county lines we call them
Our new borders our encaustic new borders
I am being waxed
covered in wax hot wax
Waxing the whole room
The whole room being waxed
The waxer the waxer oh how terrible
Oh how terrible am I being waxed
Being lit now oh how warm oh how the fire oh oh oh
Oh how the fire comes drips down through my wax it melts oh oh
Oh it melts oh oh oh oh how pleasurable how much pleasure will burn oh oh
A wick now
A pleasureless wick
But still alive, still alive
And I have seen things now
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